DIARY!!!

June 18th 09-well thank the lord my totm arrived.....but been so good this week i really hope it doesnt affect my weigh in-i so want to be in the 15s tomorrow-but i might have spoilt it too-tonite i had eaten all my pts and made eric fajitas for his tea and they are my fav so i had one to-oh no fingers x 4 tomorrow-i hate when its my totm my mind is not as strong as it normally is but i need to keep focused.Got a busy weekend ahead,tomorrow were going out 4 dinner to the livingroom and then to see a motown show-sat im going to see take that and sun we have our nieces 1st cummunion-so need to resist temptation.x

June17th 09-my internet hasnt been working so ive not been online):-but still doing good-had an sp and its looking good!!woohoo.....still waiting on totm but did a test and its negative-so just have to keep waiting-hope it doesnt come on fri for wi and make me heavier after a good week!The last couple of days i have been so hungry-so its defo lingering but i have managed to be in control of it-just 2 days to get thru to weigh in-im excited again-hoping to be in the 15s!!even went to see britains got talent last night and when we came out-eric and tia had a pizza and i never had any-to be honest i was even tempted-i was so impressed with myself.Anyway need to take tia to school so gonna go 4 now x

June14th 09-well still on track...went to the engaement party yest-took the car so was on diet coke-ate with in m pts so i'm so pleased i have got thru another weekend without overeating-so again no catch up this week-yippee!!need to just stay on track the rest of the week and then see how wi goes on fri-hoping for at least 2lb off that would take me into the 15s.had a nice weekend-really chilled.just about to get boxing on the wii to earn some bp's-heres to the week ahead-must stay on track-totm still not arrived yet but symptoms are all there-this'll be 5 weeks now-wish it would hurry up x


June 12th 09-wooooohooooo 4lbs back off hallelujah!!I am delighted thats that off and i have a clean slate now!!Thank god i have a fresh new week-but my wee mission again this week is to be good again over the weekend and i have an engagement party, so i've decided im not gonna drink and take the car-that should help and we'll have the girls with us anyway so i dont intend on staying to long!!Today i have been at calanetics again-im really starting to get into this now-i can see my arms toning up!The wii is also helping too and im heading out shopping to get something to wear for tomorrow so i might nip into argos and get a wee mini trampoline and do the challenge from the boards-every little helps!This week im gonna try so hard i so want to be in the 15s next wi so im gonna up my game-15s here i come woohoo!!x

June11th 09-D-day tomorrow-OMG-i'm excited-sp is looking good, but i wont believe it till boots scales tells me so!!Feeling good still but a bit hungry today-i stupidly had a mcdonalds meal for lunch as it was the only thing close by (within pts tho)-but obviously i used quite a bit of pts on it-so tonite im peckish for something sweet but i dont have any pts...but im not about to undo my good weeks work-totm is ready to come at any time-thats why im craving sweet things!!Just hope when it does come im still in control of things and still have my sensibly head on!!next mini mission to get onto the 15s.....its a close one i think!!x

June 9th 09-another good positive day-can see my face is a bit slimmer-yippee!!been out walking a couple of times today and tia is about to get sent to bed so i can get a shot on the wii-haha.Been fab food wise....tried the arriabbiatta sauce recipe from the ww site it was yum had it with pasta and a ww pizza-also tried the ww spicy bean soup today that was lovely too-enjoying the plan this week and excited to see how i go on fri.Got my eyelashes and eyebrow tinted and waxed today and my mum just came back her hols and bought me some lovely chanel make up-slowly starting to feel good!!x

June 8th 09-had a really positive day today-think because im not dissappointed in myself like i have been evry other monday for cheating at the weekend-so i have had all my pts today-yippee.Went for a walk earlier and another sunbed-got an engagement party at the weekend so starting to panic abit about that-what to wear and will it send me off track again-i might take the car and not drink!!Going back on the wii tonite boxing-i love it-i can totally feel it in my arms today-bingo wings goodbye-haha.Tonite tia has dancing and eric kickboxing so im meeting my friend to go for another wee walk-god i am so motivated today, reading posts from a couple of days ago u wouldn't have thought i was the same person-hope this lasts x


June 7th 09-had a good day today been shopping all day with my handsome hubby-haha!Getting stuff for him for hols b4 it all goes in the sale!!And its the 1st weekend since i started ww that i havent went over pts wise-so no playing catch up this weekend-yippee-i'm delighted and i feel less bloated today-totm not here yet but will prob arrive soon-hope i still feel good when it arrives and it doesnt set me back again!!Hoping to go into this new week with a positive attitude and have a good loss.I need it i really do-seen gorgeous clothes today that i want to be fitting into too-only i can do it and i will x


June 6th 09-feeling a bit better today, had a nice wee day with the family and eric is off tomorrow so im looking forward to that too-within pts but not made the best food choices-so need work on that but thats what i find hardest when we go out-not being organised enough and eating on the run, and nothing healthy on the menu....anyway within pts just need to get thru tomorrow and i'll have actually got thru a weekend without being naughty!!I need a good loss this week to keep me going-fingers x


June 5th 09-gutted i put on 4lbs at WI today-really i wasnt expecting that at all-2lb i could have handled....could have burst out crying and was ready to buy every choc bar in boots!!Tried to be positive and went to my calanetics class, i went for a sunbed to cheer me up and then for a walk along the prom-just feel as tho i take 1 step forward and 10 back.Im desperate to get under 16 st-its just not happening for me and those dresses i have bought are looking as tho theyre gonna be a waste of money-4 stone to lose b4 Nov is looking like mission impossible-i really dont want to go on this amazing holiday feeling shit about myself):-next week i need a good loss to cheer me up-hopefully my totm will have came and i'll not feel as rubbish or bloated-eating all my pts this week as i think my bady might have been storing them as fat as i was only eating 15-20 trying to claw it back.....anyway need to keep my chin up-its only me who can do this-when i set my mind to something i have so much will power-just need to get my head in the zone x

June 4th 09-still knackered today and now dreading WI tomorrow):-i had an sp and i think i might have put on 2lbs)))):-the scales well tell tomorrow!Well if i have i have tried my best and have clawed back all the pts i went over...so thats all i could do-but i defo feel as tho i'm retaining fluid-hurry up and come TOTM!!!Feel just now as tho i'm good for only 2 weeks of the month and the other 2 i feel lousy and bloated-might need to take a wee trip to the docs!!Well WI first thing in the morning and calanetics straight after.Just gonna write out some menu plans for the week ahead so i'm more organised.I need to be good this weekend i'm sick of playing catch up.well im getting an early night tonite-i need my beauty sleep x

June 3rd 09-so tired today-absolutely no energy at all-Anya is still not quite right and was up a couple of times last night coughing-i think a mixture of that and my weekend catching up with me!!The weather has been lovely again today so my day was catching up with washing etc and me and Anya were out in the garden most of the day.Still saving pts-nearly caught up i think but now worried as i've been saving so many pts it will effect next weeks WI result!!Gonna see how Fri WI goes and might try the wendi plan next.....starting to dread fri now-i just need to get my head around the weekend -thats the part i struggle with and then i have to play catch up all week to make up 4 it.Sometimes wish i could wave a magic wand-patience isnt one of my best qualities!!


June 2nd 09-well not feeling as care free about my bad weekend today as i have been!!!): My positive side is saying -we dont get the weather this often, u've enjoyed urself, ur back on it and u only live once......but my negative side is saying-what the hell have u done,wasted a week,prob gained,feel really bloated and now panicking i'm not gonna be the size i want for this cruise):-feel as tho my totm is coming already and its only been 2 weeks!!STRANGE!!anyway no point dwelling-i'll take my punishment on fri when i WI and move forward.Put up pics of the dresses i have bought for my cruise-hopefully by looking at them more it'll keep me going-god this journey is a rollercoaster ride....today is day 2 back on the wagon-saving points to undo some damage if i can.I really want this is i cant play catch up after every weekend-it needs to stop!!

May 31st 09-well i have had an amazing weekend-how good has this weather been!!I have been in my garden all weekend and we've had lots of visitors and i have drank so much alcohol and went way over my pts.......but do u know what i dont even care-its once in a blue moon we get weather like this...anyway i think my new tan makes up for being a bit bad-haha!!Ready to be good tomorrow tho and gonna save 4pts everyday till weigh see if i can sort some of the damage-but even if i cant u only live once!!Tomorrow is a new day-the good me will return-no point soup here i come haha x

May 29th 09-had a brilliant day-weather has been scorching so been in my garden all day-girls have been in the pool we bought and eric has been bbq-ing all day-its just been perfect!!It got off to the perfect start as i had another 2lb loss-yippee!!So thats my 1st silver 7-i'm so happy!!!I then went to the calanetics class-which i enjoyed much better this week.Looking forward to a nice weekend with my wee family.I actually doing it this time-i'm following the plan-WOOOHOO!!

May 28th 09-had a good day today-but starting to sweat abit about WI tomorrow-i really hope i lose...i've now caught up with the pts i went over but i had spaghetti bolognese for tea and ate loads and now feel so full-i'm wondering if its gonna be to heavy for me getting weighed in the morning-maybe i should have had a carb free dinner???Anyway its done now!!I've drank loads of water and i'm pissing for scotland hehe but hopefully it will flush me out and i will have a good weight loss!!Got calanetics in the morning too-god last week i was sore for days after it.well fingers x for a good loss tomorrow-god im really nervous now.x

May 27th 09-feeling great today-Anya slept much better-so we all did too!!Woke up on a high and felt alot slimmer within myself-quite excited but nervous for those scales on fri.....but if i've not lost pounds i've defo lost inches because i can feel it-clawed back more pts today so well on track now.Organised a big bbq @ ours on sat so need to be organised and make nice healthy options-so i'm not tempted!!Gonna have a nice relaxing bath with all my candles on and chill-perfect end to the day.


May 26th 09-woke up this morning shattered-Anya has been up most of the night again, coughing and being sick and ended up in between me and her dad-for her being so small she took up most of our knigsize bed!!Feeling better now tho-had my hair cut and coloured,nails filled and went for a wee sunbed so feel ive had some me time.Had a busy day so a really healthy day too as i've not had time to think about food!Had sushi for dinner it was yummy, managing to claw back some of the pts i went over with too-so on a whole im feeling good, motivated and like i can really do this!!Hopefully get a better night tonite with Anya.


May 24th 09-had a lovely day-weather has been gorgeous here-hubby let me lie in whilst he seen to anya-tia was staying over at my grans.We all went for breakfast to starbucks-then had a wander round dobbies garden centre and then to izzi an italian for tea yum........but last night my oh and i had a few drinks and then today i have went over pts wise too-so in total over 15.5 for the week but got till fri to claw it back-i'm not fussed tho-i know i can do it, gonna save 4 pts for next 3 days and get more exercise done too.Still feeling really positive-tia is off school tomorrow so hoping its nice and me and the girls can go for a nice walk and we'll have a bbq for tea-i'll just be having a tuna steak and salad tho.praying for sunshine x

May 23rd 09-had a wee lazy day today the weather has been rubbish so i never went to far.....been fine pts wise and my oh and i are gonna beat the living day lights out of each other..........on the wii of course-earn me extra bonus pts.........oh i nearly forgot i've put pictures up of me in my undies-cant believe i have actually done it but im hoping it will spur me on-it made me feel sick tho-worst areas are thighs bum tummy and ankles-as i dont have any!!!

May 22nd 09-had a good day weather has been fab which always cheers me up!!Weighed in and lost 5lbs in total but really only 1lb as boots scales made me heavier.....really pleased tho back on the wagon!!Went to calanetics class this morning-enjoyed it-think i'll go next week and see if its defo 4 me-i'm used to fast cardio workouts and this was really slow but the exercises were pulses and intense-i'll see how it goes-but the leader took my measure ments so i need to get them on here and i'll check them again in a month or so.Looking forward to a nice weekend-hoping the weather stays like this and i can get out walking.

May21st 09-another positive day for me-feeling really motivated today!!Been shopping and bought new gym stuff, so tomorrow i'm gonna go to that callanetics class-see how it goes!!Just about to walk to the school and back for tia-i reckon at a quick pace its 30mins in total-better then nothing.WI tomorrow.......for some reason i feel slimmer-dont know how or want to count my chickens after myweekend but something has happened-the scales will tell tomorrow but if i have lost its a flook-either that or something along the lines of the wendi plan???quite excited to see but told myself if i stay the same i've been lucky.Nothing major on this weekend so should be able to resist being bad and stay on track.......just thinking what a difference my mind frame is when my period is not here!!Just counted and its 27 weeks till my hols and i have 60lbs to loose-to loose it all i would have to loose on average 2.2222222 lb per week!!Now i know i'm not gonna loose every week but i'm hoping that it will average it self out-fingers x

May 20th 09-feeling really positive today.Doing well with my pts and having ww tikka masala 4 dinner-yum!!Got some much needed house work done too-extra bp's!!Been off and on ww boards all day and it defo keeps me going-i love hearing how other people are doing-the stories are so inspiring.Not had time to go 4 my walk today:(-but tia is back at school tomorrow, so anya is getting chucked in the pram and i'm gonna walk till the soles of my feet bleed-haha!Hope its not raining.drinking more water but we'll see what happens on fri!!

May 19th 09-ok have given myself the shake i need today!!weighed myself in boots and although i'm gutted their scales made me 4 lb heavier-it just feels more accurate some how.Still gonna keep to fri as WI day so on fri, i dont know whats gonna happen as i dont think i am actually 4lbs heavier-i was wearing jeans, still got my period and ate lots of cake yest-i am expecting some sort of gain but not quite 4lb......we'll see!Boots is defo the way to go as i can measure my body fat too.I'm also gonna start keeping all my weigh in tickets so i can keep track of how i'm doing.Tomorrow is a new day again-planned meals again so i'm organised-need to remember to drink my H20 and fit in some sort of exercise.Feeling more positive today tho-just need to stop this slacking at weekends!!!


May 18th 09-ok not posted for a few days as i have been so busy as its been my daughters 11th birthday-although it went fab for her...it totally knocked me off my diet-i stayed the same this week anyway at WI on fri-got my period on sat-so was obviously bloated.Sat i picked all day on party food, sun we took her to a mexican restaurant and i had fajitas and then today all i have done is eat b-day cake so feeling pretty sick with myself.I need to get back motivated- i feel as tho i'm playing at this at the moment.its amazing how much i change at my totm-i'm just constantly starving!!!Anyway tomorrow is a new day-already planned what i'm eating.....need to give myself a shake!!!!:(


May 13th 09-feeling funny today........well within pts but not as in the mood today as i have been-probably because i'm choked with the cold!!Also not drank as much water could be dehydrated....must drink more tomorrow!!Need to be exercising more too-just to busy getting organised for my daughters b-day party on sat......next week i'm on an exercise mission!!!WI on fri is coming soon.....totm is also due-i really hope i lose-fingers x


May 11th 09-done really well today ate well within my pts-think the weather has alot to do with it for me, it has been lovely today so i'm having a tuna steak salad for tea and roasted vegetables-yum....drank lots of water to so i'm feeling very motivated and ready to go 4 this!!!Have a wee mission going with my cousin in Oz to get to under 16 stone, even 15.13-by May 30th-its not mission impossible-i can do it!! only 5 lbs to get to that wee mini goal!Eating no point soup as i type and today i love ww-i really feel i can do it!!!

Ok its 10th of may 09-just started my blog today its needing a bit of work done but i'm hoping by doing this it will keep me going!!